What's wrong with me.

I am so disgusted with my performance in school. i just came to realize how lame i am this past few months and it seems that i never exerted efforts in everything i do. What is the matter with me?. :l that i do not know. Maybe, i was tired -- i am always in any way tired. Maybe i was lazy -- i am by birth a lazy beast. Maybe i lack inspiration -- i am always surrounded with people who loves me. Now, i don't really fcuking know why.
I was moved by my conscience, i should've graduated a year ago, by now i should've got myself a job, earning income somehow. But what am i doing?. instead of studying my ass off, i seemed to be as calm as the ocean. am i not thinking of my father who works hard to pay school bills?. am i not thinking of how time has left far behind?. am i not thinking of the people who will soon be needing of my aid when i succeed?. Just as this thoughts continually storms in my mind i came to realize-- i lack motivation and it needs to be fixed as soon as possible.